Friday, April 13, 2012

Changing my thoughts to dancing....

This morning, I'll go pick up a bouquet of crazy daisies to put by "the tree." 

I woke up earlier this morning than I usually do.  Wished I could have gone back to sleep, but the memories from nine years ago are too fresh.  Why don't they fade, just a little?  Nine years.  But it seems like yesterday.

Well, not really.  Today, I can think about what I'm thinking about, and change it.  Back then, I couldn't change my thoughts.  I was living them. 

Life is a "new normal" now.  That happens after a while.  It can take longer than you thought.  Life never goes back to "normal."  Normal thoughts today might have included seeing Duane and another daughter-in-law and more grandchildren than we have.  Instead, that thought I just had brings to mind Kenny Chesney's song, "Who You'd Be Today."

OK.  That's enough.  No profound thoughts or lessons today - except the one that I just made.  I can change what I'm thinking about.  Guess I'll go make coffee.  And, Duane, I'll look and listen for signs of your presence today.  After all, remember that conversation we had right outside the window where I'm sitting?  Heaven isn't that far away.  I wonder what that sunset last night looked like from your perspective.  And I wonder what you're doing today.  Maybe you'll be smiling at my crazy daisies.  Or (just thought of another song, "Fields of Grace" by Big Daddy Weave) maybe you'll be dancing with Father God in a whole field of them!  Cool!  Now I'm dancin' too!

Think about the things of heaven, not the things of earth.

Colossians 3:2, New Living Translation